Recently i was so fed up of my bf's parents. Y? I dun wish to say in here. And i sian of my life.

Actually i going genting in dec. Dunno still going anot as my bf's frenz haven confirm. Now already wat date liao. 1 of them say his wife dun let him go. WTF. Another 1 say yesterday go back check can get leave anot still haven reply. Haiz. Just wanna go take a break. I piss off of my life.

HELP. I wan to get better in my life leh. I wanna a house, a kid, more $$ and study. When i can get it. I dun wan like this now.

I wanna go out. But no one accompany mi. I m bored at hm. I nv find job recently oso. i sick of finding. Now wheneven i see newspaper, not much job oso. isit i too picky? Haiz. Hope by this year can find lor. Den next year save $ to study. I wanna get somemore cert. My cert are low.

Ah mei so fast going to b 10mths liao. She getting more n more naughty. Kid ma. sure like tt 1. growing up stage. next mth i going to buy her some clothing for CNY. For mi too. 1 year by 1 year. So fast. we are getting older & older. Haiz.

alright gtg. gonna catch some sleep.

This week is very boring to mi. Been looking for a jobs but no reply. Everyday stay at hm boring. But luckily i mit Jia Ling on tue. We went amk there to try my first manicure. I paint my nails Redish pink. Its look more redish den pink. But i like it. I told Jia Ling i wan to go do again next time. Haha.

Today i was so moody. Dunno y. Dun wish to do anything, dun wish to look after ah mei. Just dunno wat i wan. Nobody cares wat i wan too. Tml friday, going out after my bf finish work. iting his ex-classmates.(Edna & BP again) But i dun feel excited at all. I always looking forward to go out. But...... just dunno y.....

Sat going to collect my spec which i make my new spec at paris miki. Cost $218 without frames lor. So ex.... No choice. My current spec very old liao.

Mi & Ah Mei

Hmm!!!

Naughty Ah Mei

Mi In E F1.

Haiz, I was MC again yesterday. Diarrhoea. OMG...... Sian de leh. This type of sick can happen anytime. Den my bf was like omg... not working again. Damn hate him when he say like tt. Where got ppl say gf like tt instead of concern her more den say her like tt. Look like i wan de. I oso wan to go work. ! day nv work lack of quite alot of money leh. Haiz. Wat to do. We dun haf much money. Haiz. Sad man. When can i haf enough money to b a tai tai leh. In my dreams lor. Update other day.... Nothing to write den work stuff.....

Today i was mc, stomach there dunno y pain.... At work still carry damn heavy stuff, so yesterday afternn i did go c doc & did a test. Something shocking happen. But still haf to wait a few more days den test.....So tempory i eat medicine for e pain....

Nv go work so nv check company email, haiz... Just now go in & check, saw le so fan.... That Fu*ker gal who always wan mi to do her stuff again. Carry damn heavy stuff.... Dunno my stomach can tahan anot.... Temp staff not human meh... Y cant she do her things herself.... Easy to bully isit.... All other staff they treat mi ok. Not as bad as tt Fu*Ker..... Hate her alot.... Since i work, she nv even talk or go lunch wif us de. Think herself very pretty. Haiz. Work til e contract finish i not continue le.... Find a stable job le....

I wan to haf a family of my own.... I wan to move out of my family.... Sometimes really hate my dad.... Nag & nag... Noisy.....

Luckily i did return some money.... If not, jia lat.... But last month pay really not enough.... Haiz.... But nvm.... suan le.... Hope tml i can tahan.....

Its been a long time nv update already.... Quite tired after work so nv update. Hehe. I have finish e 2 weeks contract... Now its been extended to 1 month.... So happy. Still can work... After 1 month contract will look out for job again.... Haha... As long can work and pay back all e debts i own... haiz...

Ah mei recently noe how to crawl abit... Now she use walker to train to walk rite, everything will haf to keep away from her. All esle she will send it into her mouth. Haha.... She like to bite things now....

12 August 2008

Today actually miting wei ling & peng suan for movies BUT i end up goin interview in the morning at e company den afternn went to agency to sign on e contract for e temp. But i msg her she didnt reply. Dunno isit angry... Omg.... Sorry wor.

After i msg her she nv reply mi den i after coming back from e agency i call my mum ask her she nd help from buying things at NTUC anot. Den she say ok so i wait for her & ah mei. After buying things we come back hm. I was so tired. Tml work. I starting temp job at my bf's company, not he help mi in wor. Is thru agency. temp for 2 weeks as they needed ppl. So jus work first lor. Tired today.......

11 August 2008

Today dear nv work, he take a off day for National day on sat. So we went bugis walk walk. I buy a blouse. Den we went bugis junction find something to eat. We went to e basement, wow change alot. Alot of food. I try e korean spicy rice cake. Hmm, Is nice but quite spicy. And we try e cheese fries. Yummy, is nice man. I think is opp e kfc ba. After eating we walk ard, guess abt 5+, i told dear tt we eat dinner early, i scared tt after work there's alot of ppl eating dinner so we went second floor where e restuarant is. We found a new japanese resturant. Name MOF (Ministry of Food). E food there so so onli.... After tt we went back to his hse to rest. Tired. Take 51 oso alot of ppl......

9 & 10 August

Haiz. I looking after ah mei alone... Sad.... My parents went Malaysia. Den on sat i tot i late afternn den come back who noes, my bro cant take care of her. Keep crying til eyes abit zhong. Haiz. Her diapers oso wear wrong side. Diao... How to b her dad sia.... I haf to rush back by cab.... Ex man $16.30. Without claiming it from him lor. When i reach hm, she was on her yao lan. She bluff bluff to sleep lor. I carry her she laugh le. Haiz.Make mi so worried Cos my bro say she cry til her eyes zhong n no voice le. Tot wat happen. Haha. Heard my bro say she drink milk at 9+ & e time i reach hm is abt 1+. Biang, nv drink. Hungry le lor. They feed her dun wan to drink.... I make her milk she drink. Haiz, Luckily dear went back wif mi n accompany mi e whole sat & sun. Which he can buy mi food. Bring ah mei down to buy is troublesome. As raining on both days. Haiz. She still can say a good baby. onli when she wan to sleep, muz sing song. And shake her middle of e night, i didnt sleep much on sat nite. I scared i slp le wont hear her voice. So keep waking up to check on her.
Morning wake up bath her, make milk play wif her. First time bath her. Scared oso. Haha....

PS: Thanks dear for coming my hse to accompany mi to look after ah mei. If not i cant go bath n do my own things....

8 August 2008

Dear was on leave on fri so we stay at hm help to look after his niece after tt evening time we parkway walk den go katong mall as he miting his frenz for a buffet at hanabi restuarnt. His frenz birthday. After tt buffet dinner we went katong shopping centre there for ktv session. From 10.30pm -2am. But they nv sing all e way to 2am. onli til 1+am. Cos 1 of his frenz nd to go fetch his wife & another 1's gf tired, wants to go back sleep. So we go back wif them too. 1 of his frenz send us back den send his gf back. After go back to his hse i was too tired, after bath sleep.....

6 August 2008

Mit up wif Jia ling ater her work. We went wdls. Eat at food court den walk ard. After tt went civic centre to wait for her mum to finish work. Den we head back home. After i reach hm, I heard something big.... Tt is my da sao going off le. She will not stay wif us anymore. She goin to li hun wif my bro. Poor ah mei. She can jus say "ah mei bye bye" Haiz, Heartless rite.... She dun wan this family anymore. Heard she haf a bf outside. Go & die lor. Gt family still like tt. How can a mother give birth le den dun wan her own kid de. Now ah mei haf to let my mum look after. I free i oso haf to look after her. Poor thing. So small no mother love. 6 months onli lor. BUT nvm. Still got alot of ppl love her. Everyone in e family loves her. She so cute....